Wednesday, August 23, 2006

What do I want?

What do you say to people who come up to you and tell you that you deserve better than what you have and that you should strive to get something better? All when you feel that you are okay with what you have, in fact you are even happy with what you have! Do people actually know what you want? Or are they assuming that what they have (or what they say you should have) is the thing that is best for you? They mean well, I am sure they do, but I think they err in thinking that they know what you want. Or who you are in the first place. I have made that same mistake one time too many, freely gabbing my advice away to people, sometimes without even being asked, and I am learning not to do that. Who knows what ticks deep down in my heart? Who knows what I want for myself? Who knows what past have I got that has shaped me into what I am, or what I am not? Who knows that the thing that people say is not good for me, that I deserve better, is what it seems to be? The point is, I don't even know what I want at times. Make that a lot ot times. And I am still trying to find out.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

of course you deserve better things. we all do. but. it wouldn't be a life worth living if everything's just fine and dandy. it would be such a big nothing. kinda like physics without friction. kinda like forrest gump without jenny. kinda like chihiro without yubaba. people err. because we're not angels. we have choices to make, options to pick. do we really know enough to know what we really want? do we need to know at all?